Friday, March 30, 2007

My grubby little paws...

I’m sitting at my desk at work and in my grubby little paws, I have an H.P.T!! I have an H.P.T in my hands because as of today I am on CD31 which makes me about 4 days over my normal cycle range. This is totally impossible and it scares me to think that there may even be a chance or maybe it the fact that I think there may be a chance that scares me…As I sit here, one half of me is trying to convince myself to go and pee on it and then the other half of me is trying to talk me out of it, because…sadly, I have done this before and I have never ever seen two lines…

I wish that someone could just tell me what the hell is going on, I don’t have these problems, I am quite “normal” when it comes to my cycles, I have an LP of 13 or 14 days - religiously, I haven’t O’d later than CD13 in the last 8 months, so that would mean that I am now 18dpo and then if you take it that by chance I O’d later than normal, let’s say CD15 then that still makes me 16dpo – we are taking a break, I have a progesterone deficiency and I am not on progesterone this month which would delay AF…maybe I’m reading too much into this and I should just wait it out….maybe I just O’d really late, the cramps and bloating that were here on CD28 have disappeared and left me absolutely nothing to work with, I feel very very “normal”….

But I have an H.P.T in my grubby little paws….

I’ll keep you all updated….for now, I need some coffee! Bumble I wish you were here to hold my hand ;o)

7 comments:

Mands said...

Tam, if I wasn't halfway across JHB I would be there to hold your hand.
I would say just do it, but I know what it feels like when there is only one line. On the other hand it is closure. I am so sh#t at making decisions, even for other people!
Wish I could be more helpful. Let me know, either way.

Tam said...

Will let you know, as of now...2:20, I have still haven't peed on that stick...prolly gonna try and wait it out. Frank was just here saying "wouldn't that be awsome" and yeah, it really would but what are the chances?? Last time I had a cycle that was 33 days long was 9 months ago when I had my last cyst, praying it's not another one, don't think I can stand another lap...

Sticky Bun said...

I know the fear of not seeing that second line! It's so cruel! I actually admire your patience...there is no question I would have done the HPT by now. If you're not ready for it, it probably makes sense to wait. But, either way, keep us posted!

thinking of you...

Sarah said...

i'm a very conservative POAS'er and even i have to say it is very reasonable to pee on that thing now at 18dpo (or suspected O). it might be negative, so what? at least you'll know. fingers crossed for you!!!!

Reproductive Jeans said...

Oh what a test!! I would be sweating bullets by now! I will be interested to hear what you decide...I am HOLDING onto hope for you! No symptoms??

Bumble said...

Hey you!! Have you tested yet??? I know you're scared, but the ladies are right, one way or another, it would be closure... I'm holding your hand in spirit Tambo. Oh wouldn't it be wonderful if you were??? Take your temp in the morning maybe to give you a clue? Please let me know as soon as you do. (And if it was neg. at least this means your IUI is delayed and won't fall over the wedding anymore?) PS. I didn't feel ANY symptoms when I was pg, only that it DIDN'T feel like AF was coming... Good luck lassie xxx HUGS

Baby Blues said...

Hang on Tam. POAS only when you're ready. I do it first thing in the morning, before Mr. Kite leaves for the office, so I have support. Hoping for a pleasant surprise.

I heard you and Mands are meeting for coffee. You girls have fun. Post pictures.