Day 7 Stims...Feeling better!

I just want to thank you all for your sweet comments (and for not rolling your eyes) yesterday, you are all very sweet and quite frankly I am not sure what I would do without you chicks!! I love you guys!!

I wanted to pop in and say that I am feeling much better emotionally today, I am still sore and bloated but have come to accept that this is prolly a good sign and that I should just quit complaining. So, I’m feeling much much better and a little more positive than yesterday…everything is going to be just fine, we are going to see lots of follies right on track tomorrow.

My hubby is so sweet and also made me feel much better, he took me out for a quiet dinner and then we went home and had a shower together and just had some much needed “us” time. It was quite sweet actually, we were chatting about how nice things will be once we get this IF thing right, we planning on building a new house and we were chatting about play rooms and babies rooms and whether we gonna have twins or just one. I also told him that if this IVF cycle works that our baby/babies will be due just before our anniversary – and just after his birthday and he was saying that that would make them aquarius and how nice it would be as I’m surrounded by aquariun’s in my life and he is surrounded by Leo’s – apparently a perfect match!! It’s so nice to day-dream sometimes.

We also chatted about how many embies we would like to put back, I was thinking two and he was thinking three, yes, I know….we are getting ahead of ourselves here, but you have to have hope figure in to this somewhere…anyway, I was saying that I’m not sure if our clinic will allow us to put three back, also…I know I can do twins but somehow the thought of triplets scares me something silly (even tho I know that we’d prolly just be improving our chances of one taking and that the likelihood of all taking is low). Of-course none if this really means anything now as we’ll have to wait and see how many eggs fertalise and what kind of quality they are etc before making these decisions but it’s nice to know what’s floating around in his head sometimes.

Bumble, I’m trying to stay at work as much as possible as I would really like to take some time off after the retrieval and possibly after the transfer, so far they have been very understanding but I don’t want to push my luck.

LJ, Frank has had quite a few SA’s done and they all came back fine (except for the first one which seemed to be a lab/doctor problem) so ICSI is not a must but we are worried that for some reason the eggs just don’t fertalise (which wont be a first even with no sperm issues), we don’t get any help here as far as health coverage is concerned so we’d like to get the best out of our first IVF as the cost here is pretty steep.

Scan tomorrow ladies, i'm all set…got a "brazillian" wax this afternoon (yeah, i'm a sucker for punishment) to make sure we all nice and neat for upcoming events and spending a quiet girls evening at home as Frank is out tonight...

Day 6 Stims and the not-so-easy stuff...

Okay, so it seems the easy stuff is on it’s way out the window…lookout, here comes the not-so-easy part!!

As of this morning at about 3am, my ovaries started hurting like hell, they hurt when I walk, they hurt when I sit, they hurt when I don’t lie on my back, they hurt when my bladder is full and they hurt when I pee!! It’s official, I am a woes…I have very sensitive ovaries and could feel a cyst from a mile away (okay, I missed the last one but I knew something was wrong and to be fair, this one wasn’t like the others…it disappeared on it’s own and wasn’t stubborn like the others!) – I also could feel that there was more than one egg when doing Femara, so I should have expected this really and I did….just not so soon. Damn sensitive ovaries!!

I’m only on day 6 of stims, surely I shouldn’t be so bloated (I look pregnant and everyone is staring at my tummy – and I have my “fat pants” on!!) and sore?? I actually just feel like shite, my head is sore and so is my back.

Don’t get me wrong and don’t you dare roll your eyes at me (pretty please)…this is good, right? I am just a woes.

It’s just that yesterday I started wondering if everything is going to be okay, I’m getting really scared now, all of a sudden it just feels so much more real, the worst thing is that it’s not just one thing I’m scared of, it’s a shitload of stuff and while I know that this is normal, I can’t help but feel scared and very alone right now. I know that I’m not alone, I have my hubby (who is being so supportive and loving and all that I can wish for right now) and I have you guys but you all know how this feels….

One more day to go before my scan, I also think that if things down yonder are anything to go by then my retrieval will probably be earlier than expected or…..maybe not. As long as everything’s on track and there are lots of follies and they are growing nicely. I have another reflexology session on Sat to see if we can make them grow a little more and then I’ll see her the day before my retrieval as well, thing are right on track this is how it's supposed to be, so why am I so scared?

Things are gonna be okay….right?

Day 4 stims...

It’s day four of stims dare I say….so far so good. I have had some side effects from the drugs, one being a headache that didn’t want to budge for most of the weekend…

I’m feeling good today, just a slight headache…I was a nauseous this morning but I think that has something to do with the Anti-biotics that Frank and I are on as he has been complaining about an unhappy tummy.

I am also happy to announce that as of today I have been feeling some “twitches” down yonder, mainly on the right side which is my un-happy half working ovary…I must say that this is quite exciting and I am really looking forward to my scan on Friday, I am sure there are going to be loads of little follies by then!!

The injections are going well, not really that bad…I’m starting to get little bruises on my tummy now which is to be expected I suppose, as long as they doing their job then I’m a happy little camper!!

I am also happy to tell you all that I am feeling much better since starting the Meno.pur, not half as moody as I was last week….I think Frank is breathing many sighs of relief! I was talking to a friend this weekend and found myself telling her that IVF isn’t half as bad as I thought it would be (besides the moodiness), I was really scared of doing this but I have really had it quite easy up until now….so I just wanted to tell you ladies that are still heading this way, it could be much worse. Of-course I do know that this is the easy part, I’m sure as we get closer to retrieval things may get a little harder and waiting to see how many eggs we get and whether they fertalise or not may be really scary but so far it’s been easier than I thought it would be…there is a light at the end of this tunnel and for once I don’t feel like it’s an on-coming train!!

Aunt Flo has already left, she really didn’t stay long this time round…hopefully it’s her way of saying good-bye for the next 9 months….let’s hope....